aiyah...headache!

hey yall.
These times are times of turmoil, aches and pains are common i'd say. Promos are coming...and my *ahem* is fading. Shian. Oh wells, i dunt noe...my minds in a state of confusion i reckon. Everythings so...'messy'! So much things on me mind really, frens...*ahem*....promos.... The worse thing is i feel myself drawin so ever further away from God.
Well...the main thing tts botherin me is *ahem*. put in in simple words. A girl. i jst dunt noe how to say it. i cant really. i lack courage, the thing alfred has been tellin me. Just do it. Or so he says, how simple can it be. Yea sure it is, but i mean...the emotions the thots the adrenaline that ur body/mind puts you thru, its jst simply too much. Plus the paranoia of the aftermath, wat wud she tink of me...the consequences are simply too much to bear in my books. So fer now, i lay myself low, hopin this moment goes. and time will tell. if i feel the same way, perhaps, jst perhaps...i might let her noe. hmm, i wonder.
SO it is then, i say, time will tell. slowly but surely *fingers crossed*. Poof, its sure a short blog this time. Anwys, if yall hafen watched the terminal, go!!. its funny!