Mixed Feelings

Heyhey, so happy today. Managed to do 1 pull up. Rox i guess in no time i'm able to do more!. Coolstuff. Oh wells though its a happy thing. The feelin of sadness and depression still lingers. Mainly cos of my *ahem*. tsk yeap...and Promos. So many things on my mind these days. And i feel that these days pass so very quickly. I sometimes wish i cud start all over. I wish I didnt grow up this fast. I wish i were still a lil Boy all careless and free of troubles the world has given me. I hope its a phase and it go aways. Sad stuff. Hurts. Really. Absolutely. Positively.

aiyah...headache!

hey yall.
These times are times of turmoil, aches and pains are common i'd say. Promos are coming...and my *ahem* is fading. Shian. Oh wells, i dunt noe...my minds in a state of confusion i reckon. Everythings so...'messy'! So much things on me mind really, frens...*ahem*....promos.... The worse thing is i feel myself drawin so ever further away from God.
Well...the main thing tts botherin me is *ahem*. put in in simple words. A girl. i jst dunt noe how to say it. i cant really. i lack courage, the thing alfred has been tellin me. Just do it. Or so he says, how simple can it be. Yea sure it is, but i mean...the emotions the thots the adrenaline that ur body/mind puts you thru, its jst simply too much. Plus the paranoia of the aftermath, wat wud she tink of me...the consequences are simply too much to bear in my books. So fer now, i lay myself low, hopin this moment goes. and time will tell. if i feel the same way, perhaps, jst perhaps...i might let her noe. hmm, i wonder.
SO it is then, i say, time will tell. slowly but surely *fingers crossed*. Poof, its sure a short blog this time. Anwys, if yall hafen watched the terminal, go!!. its funny!